曾经的某一些时间里，我经常标榜自己睡得多么少，白天却不是很困，表达了强大的生理能力。后来，当我渐渐被健康主义思想占据之后，我便不再认为这是一件光彩的事。然而在很多人心里我还是那种不怎么睡觉的人。如今，我在忙碌的时间表里面每日贪睡。以至于白天产生了睡觉过多的精神恍惚从而困乏的状态。这是一种我太难以摆脱的现实。美国的床垫如此之软，这辈子就没有睡过。但是它仍然是舒服的。所以我每天回到家里面只想着什么时候可以睡觉，明天早上再面对没有完成的一切吧！

昨天我去了弗吉尼亚沿海的几个小城市聚集区，有丰富的河道和港湾混合区域。看到诺福克海军基地里军舰的建造，看到了几幢摩天大楼。昨天我借了AMERICAN BEAUTY的剧本。是最终电影的版本。小册子，但是每个字都那么熟悉。所以我在这里要摘抄一些。

LESTER (V.O.)

I had always heard your entire life flashes in font of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time... For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout Camp, watching falling stars... And yellow leaves, from the maple trees, that lined my street... Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper... And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird... And Janie... And Janie... And... Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a ballon that's about to burst... and then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... You will someday.